TRAVELLYAN.

Had a scroll through my Facebook convos and the more I scrolled,  the more I felt like I have no clue why was I the way I was before. I did not like what and how I was before. I felt so distant. Don't get me wrong,  there were some really good memories of certain people but they can only stay in the pasts. I always get nostalgic over memories about people that I used to talk or hang out back then, as I came across their posts and see how well they are doing; Somehow I get so bitter that I was not part of their journey anymore. It's sad, it really is. HOWEVER, those feelings aside once in a blue moon, I have changed so much and I am safe to say, I like myself the way I am right now. Not so much on the social skills/life side, but at least I have learned so much.  Especially about my comfort zone and circle, To keep it small and simple . This is what I needed right now.

Oh man. Is anyone still out there trying to keep up with my life? Because, really, nothing major happened. It has been too long. Let's see what had happened all these time (including the last part of 2017) Had an office admin job till February 2018 but I guess it's not quite an Australian culture but it was definitely a good (dramatic) experience dealing with all sorts of people. Lost Tim, his 2nd dog mid March :'( I cried hard Finally moved out of ex land lady's place after 3 years. AND MAN, I HATE MOVING Attended a friend's wedding that I thought I might not be invited went to Jacob Collier's and Imagine Dragons' concert with my concert buddy, Ric Now back to the same old boring yet poor routine T______T Goddamn I have yet to practice how to be less awkward omg You have no idea how ridiculous my social anxiety had cost me .______. Still can't believe I am turning 25 because whenever I talk to anyone at all, I felt like my life was

Hello to who-ever that is still keeping up with my blog (very honored and I don't deserve you T____T *drama queen*), Happy New Year!  So MIA for the longest time. Did not achieve any of my resolutions from last year fml "what a surprise" So on and so forth, holy shit it's 2018 already. This year will be the toughest one I reckon. Have to sort out lots of stuff as well as having few of the close friends leaving the country T_____T  So not ready to face this reality. Anyway,  Just when I thought 2016 was flat, 2017 beat the hell outta 2016 pfft Did not travel out of country ever since going back home to celebrate CNY and that's it .... UGH So... My resolutions or more like wishes for this year:  1. Sort out whatever that I was supposed to 2. Travel to 2 countries at the very least to make it up for 2017! (PRAYING)  3. New proper job 4. PRACTICE SMALL TALK  5. Update on my DEAD blog..... maybe  Till then guys xx 

Marching into May of 2017. I gotta say I achieved nothing in general. Still on the same old steps. I have lots to update this abandoned blog. I am pretty ashamed of myself for not updating it even monthly now OMG I will regret for sure for not jotting all the little things down >:( I'm trying to rethink what have I done for the past 4 months. . . . . . .. NOTHING GREAT. well, end of February, Jane was around so we went cafe hopping and exploring, that was pretty fun and also, I did manage to check out Porter Robinson live with him, that's a first and great experience! Other than that trying to juggle both social life and money, it just makes me wanna drown LOL It's a fucking struggle guys. Other than that, most of the time I was feeling bitter over people travelling to Japan like during March and April, that is not great. Did went to Portarlington during April? It was fun but again, the weather sucks. How is it possible that it's a

How can I ever resist his puppy eyes? EVER? This post is dedicated to Max. I've never own a dog before. I always wanted to and it all started because of this dog name Max here. Because of Max, I learned how easy it is to pat a dog and with Max here, trying to be friendly every single time I was over (or with anyone or everyone else), he's the best ice breaker. Thinking that without Max at his place, it would be so odd. I love just watching Max do anything at all. Miss having him just playing his paw game with me, putting one of his paw on my hand and when he felt comfortable, he'll try to put another paw on me. He loves all the attention and same goes to me, I love giving him the attention that he needs. Now that he's gone, it just felt really depressing. The moment I heard about the news, I can't help having tears rolling down from my eyes. Knowing that I didn't get to see him for the one last time before he got put down. I should have gone ov

2016 I've had so much to write and they're all still in my drafts. I am pretty terrible this year. I have not done much this year and did not achieve much this year. Still cannot get over the fact that 2016 is coming to an end in less than a week  😭 I HATE IT. There's so much things I wish to accomplish but it just zoomed by in a blink of an eye. I have to admit this year is not one of those years that I adore. I realized how terrible I am this year. Definitely did not cross off the working on friendship bucket list that I made last year. It's all bullshit. I think I made it worse actually pfft. I'm just so tired. work drains me so much and all the time that I've got left, either i spend it with him or i decided to give it all to myself because I miss having my alone time. Plus the time I've left will be like just days where it's not when others are free so it is a STRUGGLE. Yeah yeah I keep putting the blame on time becaus