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2019, Here We Go.

Hey if you are reading this, have a happy 2019 ahead guys! Ready for my rants?! 

Adulthood F-ing Sucks | VENT

Not sure if it's just me but as each year goes by,  the more I dread adulthood. First of all it's the friendship . I have no clue on what's real anymore. Or more like if there's still friendship left? I am not targeting anyone in particular because maybe it was my fault that people felt like I am not gonna be there for them (?) who knows. So I learn how to be alone and perhaps.. a little too comfortable that I forgot how to function in groups. Also in the recent years, I fucking hate myself during group outings. I dread small talks. I became fucking awkward and I just can't deal with it. I get fucking anxious. Also, it gets quite confusing knowing who will actually stand by your side and who's not. If only mind games doesn't exist. SIGHHHH I am just really annoyed at myself. Pardon me for all the rants. Sending you the negative vibes ...  I needed some place to vent and this is the only space that I can do it freely. without w

2 5 T H

I remember when I was younger,  I thought anyone that is over 23 years old seemed so mature and steady, having it all figured out. But for me, right after I turned 22, I felt like I sorta stopped growing. Birthdays have just been really just-another-ordinary-day and lesser friends or acquaintances wishing me as each year goes by. To be honest, it kinda hurts because it makes me wonder if people just don't give a shit about you anymore or? So much FOMO going on as each birthdays gone by. Am I really worthy? Do I not really matter anymore? It really sucks when I kinda measure up to the importance of myself comparing to others. I have just been really emotional knowing I AM FREAKING 25 and wtf am I doing with my life. Damn that social media is toxic but somehow, it does help in knowing where I stand. .... I no longer wanting to wish for anything because it just doesn't measure up to what I wanted. Especially after being at this

10 Types of Annoying Customers That You Get at Work (My Version)

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HELLO GUYSSSS I have always always wanted to blog about this because after soooooo many years of being in the hospitality/customer service industry,  I am pretty sure I am certain what sort of customers will kill my brain cells DRIVE ME NUTS . And please, if you are reading this,  please understand those who serve you are just doing their jobs just like what you are doing. They are providing you service and they are just regular people,  and NO, even tho you pay for customer service tax or tips,  doesn't mean you can make them your little bitch/slaves 😠😠 And of course, there's always exceptions like the wait staffs being a rude ass themselves. HOWEVER, The point of this post is my personal experience with customers all these years and I realized there's always a certain type that I JUST KENOTTTTT **TO NOTE: They are all not in specific orders/ranking. *Drum roll* 1. The ones who are just downright rude to you out of nowhere LIKE H

Adventures with Jane // June 2018

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Hey peeps! Finally decided to have some interesting memories jotted down here after a year omg So much has changed that's for sure. Looking back at my old blog posts and it's pretty embarrassing... but I was pretty happy re-reading it; Because it definitely triggers some old memories that were worthy and I was surprised at those bits and pieces that I thought I would remember but I didn't. So I thought I should at least quickly blog about it before the fun memories got pushed back again. There we go, This blog posts is more like a memory of roadtrip with Jane.  This Jane is definitely my favorite Jane because she and I are the closest among other Janes 😂 but for the record, most of the Jane that I knew they are all really humble and gorgeous.  we go wayyyyy back.  It's funny how every time she visits Melbourne, as each year goes by, our friendship became stronger. I first met her through Jesslyn and we weren't tha

Memorable but Not-So-Rewarding Pasts;

Had a scroll through my Facebook convos and the more I scrolled,  the more I felt like I have no clue why was I the way I was before. I did not like what and how I was before. I felt so distant. Don't get me wrong,  there were some really good memories of certain people but they can only stay in the pasts. I always get nostalgic over memories about people that I used to talk or hang out back then, as I came across their posts and see how well they are doing; Somehow I get so bitter that I was not part of their journey anymore. It's sad, it really is. HOWEVER, those feelings aside once in a blue moon, I have changed so much and I am safe to say, I like myself the way I am right now. Not so much on the social skills/life side, but at least I have learned so much.  Especially about my comfort zone and circle, To keep it small and simple . This is what I needed right now.

My life so far... Mid 2018 version.

Oh man. Is anyone still out there trying to keep up with my life? Because, really, nothing major happened. It has been too long. Let's see what had happened all these time (including the last part of 2017) Had an office admin job till February 2018 but I guess it's not quite an Australian culture but it was definitely a good (dramatic) experience dealing with all sorts of people. Lost Tim, his 2nd dog mid March :'( I cried hard Finally moved out of ex land lady's place after 3 years. AND MAN, I HATE MOVING Attended a friend's wedding that I thought I might not be invited went to Jacob Collier's and Imagine Dragons' concert with my concert buddy, Ric Now back to the same old boring yet poor routine T______T Goddamn I have yet to practice how to be less awkward omg You have no idea how ridiculous my social anxiety had cost me .______. Still can't believe I am turning 25 because whenever I talk to anyone at all, I felt like my life was

2018.

Hello to who-ever that is still keeping up with my blog (very honored and I don't deserve you T____T *drama queen*), Happy New Year!  So MIA for the longest time. Did not achieve any of my resolutions from last year fml "what a surprise" So on and so forth, holy shit it's 2018 already. This year will be the toughest one I reckon. Have to sort out lots of stuff as well as having few of the close friends leaving the country T_____T  So not ready to face this reality. Anyway,  Just when I thought 2016 was flat, 2017 beat the hell outta 2016 pfft Did not travel out of country ever since going back home to celebrate CNY and that's it .... UGH So... My resolutions or more like wishes for this year:  1. Sort out whatever that I was supposed to 2. Travel to 2 countries at the very least to make it up for 2017! (PRAYING)  3. New proper job 4. PRACTICE SMALL TALK  5. Update on my DEAD blog..... maybe  Till then guys xx